Wednesday, November 4, 2009

再见......

他去世到现在已经三天了,我依然感到心情欠佳。虽然不是跟他很熟,不过我对他的印象依然很深刻。一个大好青年这么年轻就去世了,我深感惋惜。上几个月才在面子书上add他,想不到我leave的第一个comment也是最后一个comment就是'R.I.P.'这三个英文字母。近几天我翻阅了许多关于他的东西,发现他的生活还过得蛮写意的。他也没料到竟然会在这光辉岁月就要离开这世界。

星期天晚上,看到LKT的PM写‘安息...朋友’,我好奇地问他。他没回答,只留下了The Star网址,叫我自己读。开始只是大略看过,没发现他的名字。仔细再读一遍,“The first body was found and it was identified that is James Khor Wan Khai, 20”。我当时真的被吓到,我很希望我看错,很希望没有‘body’这个字。我真的是很惊讶,整个晚上不能睡好。隔天,我也是还无法接受他离去的事实,直到出席他的丧礼过后,心里才对自己说了一句话:他真的走了。

他真的是一个很特别的人,我想应该是很难找到一个像他那样的青年了。元凯这个名字,目前我都没有遇到第二个,不过却在去年月读一本小说时看到这名字。‘青青河边草’相信90年代初或之前出生的人都会有印象,是琼瑶著作的小说。故事里面的‘元凯’也是很年轻就去世了。

除了惋惜,再也没有其他词汇可以让我形容自己的心情。有些人认为自杀是解决问题的方式,这是个很自私的想法。死了之后,你身边人怎么样?他们会不伤心吗?有许多人想继续活下去的机会都没有,他就是其中一个例子。若有谁想要结束自己的生命,这之前,请想想这个人。生活过得怎么样,是自己创造出来的。现今社会已经不如往日了,没有人可以受到约束,没有人可以受到人权的侵犯。

为了更美好的明天,就从双手开始,为自己用心打造!

最后还是要向元凯说:愿来生你能活得幸福美满!

Friday, October 30, 2009

家庭主妇

某一天,突然与班上同学提起‘家庭主妇’这话题。

某个女同学在做值日生,“看他扫地的方式就知道她平时没做家务。”我说。

这么说来好像在批评她呢...... 哈哈,还好啦!

很多人都认为家庭主妇,也就是‘师奶’对社会没贡献。但我并不这么认为,因为这句话‘成功男人背后一定有个支持他的女人’已经解释了她们的贡献。通常公众都对她们有偏见,认为她们只会讲是非,贪小便宜,多管闲事等。但却很少人会赏识她们好的一面及她们的贡献,以为她们在家很清闲,没有压力。其实不是的......

家庭主妇一点也不容易当,尤其是家里没聘请佣人的。我邻家的太太就是个例子。每天早上很早就起身,大概5.30am,那时候也是我刚睡醒准备上课。她算是蛮勤劳的,从早忙到晚。我大概都可以说出她一天的工作,1)扫神桌,拜神,去菜市,准备午餐,清理厨房,扫地,拖地,洗衣,熨衣服,准备晚餐,清理等等等的工作,数也数不完。

如果说在外工作辛苦,难道她们就不辛苦吗。你能想象拖地是多喘吗?就好像跑了两大圈那样。她们的压力不大吗?如果不是她们照顾孩子,除理家务,你能在外面无牵挂地工作吗?如果她们不贪小便宜,多管闲事,你能省下那么多钱吗?什么事都处理得妥妥当当吗?我相信若叫那些上班族留在家做家务,他们肯定会说:那还不容易?不过,一两天过后,他们肯定会说:我愿意在外工作!

当家庭主妇的多数是女性,当然她们也不愿意的。如果把孩子送到托儿所去,既不放心又不经济。想想看,若你薪水不多,又要把孩子送到托儿所。你整个月的薪水就白白消失了,那倒不如妈妈牺牲理想,留在家做全职的家庭主妇。这是事实,问10个家庭主妇,8或9个会告诉你说:孩子长大后,我想在外找份工作。

所以,希望大家能够尊重女性,尤其是‘师奶’!她们其实是很伟大的。

Sunday, October 25, 2009

地狱的世界

昨晚看了一则新闻,因该是今天的头条,发生在槟城的。相信大家都应该知道。父亲用硫酸泼母女,母死,女重伤,失明!其实我很少买报纸看,是妈妈告诉我的。读了这新闻,不知如何形容自己的心情。是生气呢?还是悲哀......?

人世间竟然有这么的事情发生?真的难以想象。即使常听闻的妻子搞外遇,最恐怖的也只不过被刺死几十刀。这位太太好赌欠债,丈夫因为承受不了还债的压力而杀害她,这种做法实在太残忍了。最令人痛心的是,女儿也遭受硫酸,导致毁容及失明。

年仅十七岁就遭遇这种事情,如果是发生在我身上我应该会疯掉。她的成绩也不差,是个优秀生,不过这么一失明,大好前途就毁掉了。唉!

有时天灾的发生也不是必然的,看看人类的所作所为就知道了。有时我们无可否认神的存在,他每天都在看着我们。人类经常都不满意现有的生活,制造了许多问题,包括了大自然,动物,人类本身也受到伤害。人的诞生就等于严重问题的产生,人类对大自然的贡献不多,但造成的破坏却是一摞摞。

鬼,很可怕;人,更可怕!鬼是已逝的众生,它不会无故去陷害人。人就相反,只因为种种的小原因,就去害人,伤人。若真的人与鬼来比可怕,我相信鬼将会输给人类。

希望大家时时刻刻都这样想: 我是应该为地球作出贡献了。

Saturday, October 24, 2009

今天建晴来找我,目的是要谈12月假期时他要带3-5年级的学生来学习first aid。此外,我们也谈了很多东西,包括学业级团体的事情。虽然第一次跟他谈话,不过还挺自在的,说话时也不会感到压力。难怪建锭这么喜欢找他谈心。

傍晚约了智宏一起吃晚餐。回想起来,我已经整一个月没有找他了。他不知多开心,因为在家忙功课,难得出来松一口气。

回到家,突然想起星期一要上课,又在胡思乱想了。星期一。。。对我来说是个挺恐怖的一天,我几乎都在星期一出车祸。我有时觉得槟城人驾车太粗鲁了,而且缺乏了礼让精神,偶尔心里想:让一下会死meh? 吉隆坡与槟城有很大的分别,吉隆坡人驾车方式是,突然要湾才打signal, 即使是吃进别人lane, 也不会被hon... ;槟城人驾车,即使你很早打signal, 趁后面车距离你还远的时候吃进去,后面车偏偏驾快快,趁机hon你一下也爽!

我发现自己很爱诳购物中心,今年以内,我几乎每个周末都会到QB或gurney走一趟。在吉隆坡的时候也不例外,整个雪隆区的有名购物中心我都走过。

for example:
- One Utama (Petaling Jaya)
- The Curve (Petaling Jaya)
- IKEA (Petaling Jaya)
- Pavilion KL (KL)
- KLCC (KL)
- Berjaya Times Square (KL)
- Mid Valley (Petaling Jaya)
- IOI Mall (Puchong)
- Sunway (Subang)
- The Mines (Selangor)
- Alpha Angle (Wangsa Maju)

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

已经12.40am了,我还没上床睡觉。刚刚发现找不回昨天发现的东西,心里有种莫名的。。。感觉(不知如何形容)。差不多将近一个月半没有更新这部落格了,突然心血来潮想添加一些感想上来。

哎,年终考试即将来临,发现很多课业需要复习,但是时间已经不足了。星期二考了MUET的speaking, 开始时多少也会紧张,不过过了一阵子却感觉到挺好玩的。不知为何,我发现自己有些不正常,一提起MUET就会大笑,进到speaking的考场时也会暗笑=.="。也许是我的英文老师的脸部表情太夸张了,她虽然很惹人厌,不过教书时还挺专业的。看大家考speaking前都在忙着读补习的笔记,感觉到他们非常压力似的;而我却轻轻松松地,不断地跟别人讲话。其实我本身挺爱讲话的,一天没有讲话好像会死这样。上个星期,班上同学还拿名单,做了一项投票,并分为五个category,1搭讪达人,2最爱‘炫’,3最冷漠,4最‘鸟’,5好好先生/小姐。猜猜看我是哪一种呢??? 哈哈,没想到平时没有什么在班上的我竟然这么多人投我一号!!!!。。。
也许我常常到处去找别人讲话吧。。。

However, I still found that my communication skill still have to improve. I don't feel relax when talk to somebody who are either looks very cool, older than me and younger than me. It's quite chanllenging because not everyone the same, people may not expose to much to let you know, and besides you shouldn't force people to tell you everything that they want to keep it as secret. We should also respect each other instead.

There are many of my friends I found that they need people to care them, I hope I can lend my ears to them and besides lend my helping hands too. The situation isn't complicated, it's just see who are the one take the first step. I also lost the direction, I know sometimes they might be suffered but what should I do. If I asked them what happen also, they might not be telling me the truth instead they will be doubted that why suddenly I ask them so much? What is my intension? If they are not willing to tell me, I also have to respect them.

无论如何,我想说一句话。
‘任何人需要我的帮助,我会尽量帮助他们;任何人想要倾诉,我也愿意聆听’

Friday, September 4, 2009

古今之别

现在是一个知识爆炸的时代,人类所吸收的知识量也不断增加。就在这时候,人们的思想也越来越丰富,一旦没有正确的思想观念,滥用所拥有的智慧,那么许多恐怖的事情都会发生。现今社会出现了许多新的讯息,在讯息还没演变成真理之前,我们都不应该轻易相信它,以免受到错误讯息的影响而误导下一代。何谓真理?古代中国注重的孝道就是真理,三千年前的人类要孝顺,如今的人类也要孝顺,千千万万年以后的人类也是一样要孝顺。真理才是真正大家接受的,你在任何一个地方推广孝道,不会没人喜欢的。因此在这个时代,分辨是与非是件及其重要的事情。

我们的祖先在这方面非常懂事。中国是世界上最早发明火药的国家,不过,他们却没有大量地使用火药来攻击他国,而是用它来保护自己。通常他们都是用火药来制造炮竹,烟火等,以便把佳节气氛弄得更热闹。古时候的中国不是不文明,他们也不是笨,不大量出产火药来赚钱。我们的祖先非常有远见,他们会顾虑到如果大量生产火药,那么很多人将会滥用它来引起战争,最后受影响的将会是他们的下一代。古代中国是人文与科技两方面都文明的,不过他们非常注重人文发展,他们都懂得这么的一个道理,数理教育只用在一时;人文教育则用在一生。

人文教育是非常重要的,它教导我们如何朝向正确的观念去思考,有了正确的观念之后我们就不会迷失方向,滥用智慧来干伤天害理的事情。正如以上所说的:数理教育只用在一时;人文教育则用在一生。我们学习数理,可以应用那些知识来应付考试,在工作上发挥所长。但是我们学习人文,生活上许多事情都是与它息息相关,我们都不断地在应用这知识。一个人的成就再怎么好,一旦品行不好,也不是什么了不起的人。

这些都是古代人与现代人的分别。

Thursday, September 3, 2009

有得也有失

从出事到现在,已将近一个多月了。偶尔还会回想起而感到害怕与难过。最近学校考试成绩也出炉了,唉...... 考得真烂!也因此而搞到这几天的心情七上八下。

上星期,退休已久的ex-leader为一班孩子们举办讲座会。我也参与在内。其实,我发现我比一般的同学幸福多了。上了中六以后,就没有机会再接触到人文教育了。一般中六的学生都为他们的学业拼到要生要死,搞到自己的心里面只有学业,而忽略了许多有趣的事物。人文发展其实是很重要的,孔老夫子收学生,并不注重到底那个学生聪不聪明,而是注重那个学生的品行。‘品学兼优’这四个字,品永远是在学的前面,可见古时中国人是多么地注重一个人的品行多过学问。一个多有学问的人若没有良好的品行,也只不过是‘鸟人’一个!偶尔我也想读一些关系到人文发展的书刊,以平衡自己的心理。

今天,我与这一班孩子有了有史以来最近距离的接触。上任至今,这应该是唯一一次有那么的一个机会让我了解他们。如果我没出事而导致没车子用,我想应该有机会跟他们谈这么多。从今天起,我会比以前更了解他们。人类就是那么地奥秘,不同人有不同的性格,人与人之间是需要时间来互相了解的。最重要的是不要对任何人有偏见,一旦是人,都会有改变的一天。‘路遥知马力,日久见人心’,这句话,相信受过华文教育的人都懂,但是有多少人会应用在日常生活呢?我自认我不是个明眼人,我不会分辨好人与坏人。不过,我只相信人都会有改变的一天。若我真的不信遇到坏人,那只有预防咯,难道要他对我不仁,我对他不意吗?

经过今天,我会更有信心治理好这个团体!

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Sick...

About 40 hours ago, I was suffering from fever... It was a damn midnight for me because I can't fall as sleep. I think I slept for not more than 3 hours. Haiz...the next day still got school.

During that midnight, I have thought a lot of stupid things... "OMG! If I get H1N1, what am I going to do???" and "If I get dengue fever? How it's going to be?" The whole night I keep on shivering even though the fan is not on... After that, I have made my decision not to go to school in the next morning.

I was awaked at 4.00am, that time i felt that I get better. Then I have changed my mind to go to school because there are many things need to be done (I don't mean that attend lesson). My juniors will come and see me for form signature, I have to remind my friend about the details of coming competition...

After a few minutes I reached school, I have already regreted that I have made a wrong decision. My fever is getting worst and there bad news reported by my junior...Haiz...damn meaningless going to school.

After school dismissal, I went to a Government Clinic to seek for doctor. I got there about 2.20pm and there was only a lab assistant there. She told me that the Malays are going out for the Friday prayer, therefore they only will be opened by 2.45pm. There's no problem for me to wait since my fever is getting better. After 2.45pm, there are a lot of patients waiting at the registration counter and the worker there doing things very slowly. Haiz... it makes me wait for about 15 minutes to get my number.

Finally, is my turn to see doctor. I went inside the room and told him that i got fever. He asked me a lot whether I got flu, cough or any red dots on my body. I wondering that is he suspecting me for H1N1. The answer is NO! He just want to confirm that whether am I suffering from dengue fever. Then he also asked the nurse to 'withdraw' my blood for blood test.

The result of the test was.... "NORMAL!" Haha...so sweat...

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Sears Tower Rename...(Willis Tower)




Sears Towers is located at Chicago Illinois in United States of America since 1973. It is a 108 stories skyscrapper and was the tallest builiding in the world before surpassed by Petronas Twin Towers in our country.




By today onwards, Sears Tower will be gone. It will be renamed as Willis Tower that introduced by a British Company called Willis Group Holding, Ltd. Sears Tower that widely known by everyone over three decades will become a history since Willis Tower was offcially renamed on July 16, 2009.




Over 90,000 people have joined the group "People Against the Sears Tower Name Change" on the social net working Web site - Facebook. We can see that how aggresive American are in protecting Sears Tower against from name change.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Chinese Dialect That I Speak (Taishanese)

Many people were asked about what kind of Chinese Dialect do I speak with my family, my answer is : "Taishan Hua or Xinning Wa (in Hokkien)". Recently, I just found it in Wikipedia and I realized that in English we call it as Taishanese. It is a bit sounds like Cantonese but it still many differents between them.

Taishan is the origin of Taishanese, it is located in Guangdong Provice of China and situated at southwest of Guangzhou. Taishanese also known as Xinning but seems that not many people speak it in Malaysia. By the way, about 70% of Chinese Americans are made up from Taishanese. That's why sometimes we heard that Chinese that migrated to America known as 'Kam San Ah Pak' (in Cantonese). Because many Taishanese were migrated to California esspecially San Francisco during the earlier stage of 20th-century. Nowadays, Taishanese is widely speak by Chinese Americans that stay in chinatowns.

Actually last time Taishanese was widely spoken in Penang too but seems when it was replaced by Hokkien. My grandpa also told me that many Chinese immigrants were Taishanese. When I viewing my Graduation Magazine, I also found that many students written there their China Province origin were Taishan. It can be conclude that there are many Taishanese in Malaysia.

Appreciate your dialect, speak it always whenever you can...Haha

Monday, July 13, 2009

I'm STEAM Today!!!

Today as usual, drive my 'mini Kancil' to school early in the morning. Actually I feel that I'm weird because every Monday wake up early sure "STEAM"! Maybe I don't have a good night sleep every Sunday night and results that I lack of spirit in the next day morning.

When on the way driving to school, I met with an accident! Haiz...it was very unlucky (or SUI in Hokkien)... When I reached to the end of the Yeap Chor Yee Road and going to turn left into Jalan Masjid Negeri (or Greenlane that known by everyone), suddenly I saw a car tried to overtake the car infront and enter my lane (left lane and I should keep at the left because there are many cars on the right lane)...(actually I'm not good in describing). I'm very "STEAM" that time and the car already knocked my 'mini Kancil' and the sound (Krak! Kark! Krak!) can be heard... OMG...then the driver got down from the car and me too...

Luckily his car was a little bit scratches while the Kangaroo Bar of my 'mini Kancil' was out of shape... Haiz... the uncle somemore said that I should stop at the junction and I also "Steam Steam" apologize... SWEAT!!! He told me: " I think it will not cost much ler...can i get your phone no.?" Actually I want to reply him this way : "No need to get your car for service also...please lah!! Like that also want me to pay for it???" These are what my mind thinking but I have no mood to 'shoot' him...Haha

Since that place is not suitable for us to stop there, so he just got my phone no. and we leaved... Luckily he didn't call me ...

Afternoon one of my friend call me and concerned about the incident... I feel surprised about that because she is not same school with me and I only tell those classmates... After she explain, just realized that she saw me dealing with the incident this morning... Haha...A bit 'sia sui'...

It was very unlucky for me today...

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Work That Not Been Done (Homework I Mean!!!)

There are a lot of homework given by the teachers in school... Haha! Esspecially the Maths T teacher - Mr. Yeap. Actually I don't mind he give a lot of exercises, perhaps I don't know to answer the questions...Haiz! Seniors said that he is good in teaching Maths and ask me should be proud taught by him...

Sometimes I feel guilty that I'm not doing well, the girls in the class complete their homework all the time. Seniors told me that: "Be like the girls!". It doesn't mean that ask we guys to be girlish...instead learn from them how to be hardworking in study. Sometimes I also feel that the girls treat the classroom like the office, so focus on their homework and didn't talk to each other at all....I really admire them in this case.

Our Chemistry teacher - Mr. Ong is a very dutiful teacher... Although he don't have much experiences in teaching lower six, he still try his best to teach and make sure all the students done the exercise that been given. Unfortunatelly...I'm the one who didn't do his homework...Haha.

International Language - English

English is the most common language that used by the worldwide since many years ago... The other word: "you cannot 'survive' if you don't know to speak in English".

Teaching Maths and Science in English had been started since 6 years ago and it was introduced by our Ex- PM - Dr. Mahatir Mohammed. He says "If we want to gain a lot of knowledge, first of all we need to master the English language!" Since many books were written in English instead of Malay, therefore if we don't master well the English language, we are not able to understand what's the information that given by the book.

Recently, the Minister of Education want to change 'it' back into mother tounge language for primary school and Malay for secondary, ('it' refer to 'teaching maths and science') In order to improve our students' English standard, our government increase the expenditure for English language subject so that to level up the quality of English lesson since people said that proper grammer had not been taught in school. (That's totally rediculous!) Is it there is no any syllabus for English language? Since many students can master well in other languages, howcome they cannot manage well in English???

There are a lot of scientific terms in both Maths and Science subjects, if the students didn't learn it in English during their lower form, they have to suffer when they enter college or University. Many terms that need to memorize and some of them only can be found in Scientific dictionary instead of English dictionary...

I have nothing to conclude about this since the Minister of Education have already made the decision.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Special Day for Me and Those...

It's quite a special day for me and those... Some of them will be happy while some of them maybe sad because of some reason... But for me, I feel that everything will be fine after this. Every human being that come to this world sure got their own ability in doing a job and no matter what kind of job it is... Whether it will be the difficult job or an easy job, just depends on the person how to manage it... Despite you didn't get what you wish, you still need to appreciate what you have... God will not disappointed those people who had sacrifies a lot.

Different kind of job will be done in different method... Every job that be given is not an easy task. Don't think that what happened today was a final decision, there are still a lot of changes if you guys work harder... Life is not a bed of roses, don't think that you have already done a lot compare to the others.

Still the same phrase that mentioned, "God will not disappointed those people who had sacrifies a lot!!!"